You spin me round!

Today's walk took me over to the movie theatre. Inside they have a carousel with some really gorgeous animals. I thought I'd share them with you.

p.s. Thanks marian for the great camera that catches all the glorious colors. don't these pics just pop!)

Change Always Hurts (in the beginning)

This is what it takes to make a drastic change in your physical activity when you have gotten as obese as I have. There ya see it. Medications for all of the following.









1. anti-depressant (Don't be down)
2. Mood stabilizer (Don't be too up)
3. Sleeping pill (Too up to sleep?)
4. Anti-Inflamatory (to help over worked muscles avoid damage)
5 Muscle relaxant (oops overworked and now have muscles cramps)
6. Stomach meds (because muscle relaxants eat up your stomach)
7. Pain killers (ohh you poor baby you)

All this just so I can talk myself into taking a walk every day and the pool twice a week. (banging my head on a table)

Thanks for listening and your notes of support. You go Steph. It's harder to get the weight off when you are pushing 50 instead of what 25? we love ya!

More springy thingys

Another sign of spring. I needed my umbrella to take a walk today. How come umbrellas tend to go bad in the middle of a walk? Why not just fail to open and show that it is broke before you are two blocks from home in the rain trying to find something to shoot for your blog and needed to keep your camera dry because you have no pockets? What a pain.

Flame on!

This is a nod to my sister, Sara at Ibbyskibby. She is doing a collaboration with her friend Jen. They are looking for signs of spring. Here is my very favorite sign of spring. It comes along with opne of my favorite sounds of spring. It when my mom says to me, "Ohh look Jess at that beautiful forsythia bush!" It (the bush) and gettting to live near her are the best way to start spring.

Love Ya Mom!

When did I stop looking in mirrors?

I realized a few years back, that I never really saw myself anymore in mirrors. I would glance at one and fix my hair or my clothes or brush my teeth, but I can't remember when I actually stopped seeing myself in the reflection.
The truth is I am fat. Nothing can change the truth behind that statement. It's not like I didn't realize it years ago, I just haven't really done anything to stop it. I have to change this. I used to have all these convenient excuses for why I was fat. Initially, I put on all this weight when I quit using drugs. I talked myself out of looking at the negative side of the weight gain. I told myself "At least I not using drugs." Then I told myself that my weight kept me from making poor choices with men. After all, not dating at all seemed better than dating another loser.
Today, I really saw myself in the mirror, and I don't like her/me. I fear I am becoming the caricature of the stereotypical fat woman. No matter how nicely I dress within the first half an hour of work,I have dripped something on my shirt. Nothing I own seems to fit anymore.

So it is time for a change. I am pretty sure that the only people that read my blog are my family so I feel that I can blog about whatever i want, even about the boring things. Tomorrow I'm going to take my camera and go for a walk, even if it's only a short one. And I am going to take a picture of something, anything and I am going to blog about it every day. This may get boring, but for right now. I am writing more for me than for anybody else. I have got to find a way to change my life, because right now. I just feel lost. Maybe it's just because it's April, and things are blooming, which of course means my nose is running. And maybe that chemicals in my body are out of whack because of the season and that brings on depression. Or maybe it's just because as far as weight goes. I've reached rock bottom. It's time to start climbing.

Medusa has a Bad Hair Day!

Isn't she gorgeous? My sister, Sara Moses, made this lovely little crocheted gorgon from a book I checked out from the library for her( I love it when sisters take hints. Did you love that button jewelry book Marian? :-)

Anyways, I have babysat twice for her and each time she gave me a little gift. This is by far my favorite, though the dragonfly is gonna look fantastic on my Christmas tree. My sister Sara has a great website where she shows other things she has made. Click here to visit it.

This little Medusa is going to guard my computer at work (after I have taken it around and showed it off to everybody). Below is a picture to show size comparisons. She, (Sara that is, not the gorgon) is a very talented fiber artist.

I got my hair permed and then needed to get it trimmed to get the best look. She is so me. "I just washed my hair/snakes and I can't do a thing with with it/them"